The 'Rules of Life'
I had a client tell me the other day that I live outside the ‘normal rules of life’.
I reflected on this and I guess it’s true in a lot of ways, but it hasn’t always been the case.
Ten years ago I had what many would consider a cookie cutter life. I was still living in my home town, engaged to a man I planned to have children with, finishing my journalism degree with aspirations of a stable career working my way up through the ranks of Television. I’d created what I thought stability looked like because I didn’t have it as a child.
What I had yet to learn is that stability comes from within, and my internal world was anything but stable. I was struggling to reconcile the attraction I felt for women with the commitment I was about to make. I was struggling to tame the wild woman inside who wanted to run free, travel the world, take chances as they appeared, follow signs from the universe, take up space in my own life unfolding and imploding over and over until my true self emerged.
Eventually the wild woman won out. I had to explore my desires, I had to face my fear of stepping outside of the safety of my comfortable little bubble and let the world have me, break me, heal me, show me why I’m really here.
Some years later after working my way up through the ranks of Television I learnt this lesson again, leaving behind the stability of a successful career to go and do the things my heart was calling me to do - working for a wellbeing start-up buy the name of Morning Gloryville, and finally setting up my own coaching business.
What has driven me time and time again to break free from the ‘normal rules of life’, other people’s expectations, my own limitations and fears, is the thought of what is at stake if I didn’t.
It’s not been an easy journey, but I wouldn’t change one second of it because it’s mine. I am free. I make my own choices and create my own chances. I listen to my inner guide and I give myself permission to try, fail, pick myself up, learn and evolve. And to me that is the very meaning of life.